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The improbable horror of clusters Eighty percent of you will read this and think I am insane. One in five will feel relieved that there are others out there like them. I have a phobia. Well, it’s not a fear so much as this deep-seated existential disgust. When I see it, I feel nauseous and itchy. It’s burned into my psyche, to be trotted out at random times and in nightmares. It is … clusters. Specifically, irregular clusters of organically shaped holes or bumps. For example: The way a head of garlic looks if you slice it horizontally, bumpy rashes, certain coral textures, a cut open papaya and the grouping of spiders’ eight eyes. This texture, like obscenity, is hard to define, but I know it when I see it. The link to the rest of the article (which I did not write just found on the internet)  http://www.statesmanjournal.com/article/20101212/COLUMN0811/12120311/The-improbable-horror-clusters (To see the picture the author talks about click on the link and the see photos on the first page) I looked at that stupid picture and I am not amused and I am not putting that picture on MY tumbr. The closest thing I will put up is the honeycomb pattern she references. Notice it is dry… if it was wet that bitch wouldn’t go on MY tumblr either. lol 

The improbable horror of clusters

Eighty percent of you will read this and think I am insane. One in five will feel relieved that there are others out there like them. I have a phobia. Well, it’s not a fear so much as this deep-seated existential disgust. When I see it, I feel nauseous and itchy. It’s burned into my psyche, to be trotted out at random times and in nightmares.

It is … clusters. Specifically, irregular clusters of organically shaped holes or bumps. For example: The way a head of garlic looks if you slice it horizontally, bumpy rashes, certain coral textures, a cut open papaya and the grouping of spiders’ eight eyes. This texture, like obscenity, is hard to define, but I know it when I see it.

The link to the rest of the article (which I did not write just found on the internet) 

http://www.statesmanjournal.com/article/20101212/COLUMN0811/12120311/The-improbable-horror-clusters

(To see the picture the author talks about click on the link and the see photos on the first page)

I looked at that stupid picture and I am not amused and I am not putting that picture on MY tumbr. The closest thing I will put up is the honeycomb pattern she references. Notice it is dry… if it was wet that bitch wouldn’t go on MY tumblr either. lol 

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 In a week or so I will be 36. I am not a big believer of fighting your age but recently I had a “When exactly did start looking older?” moment.

Don’t get me wrong, I look good. I even look young for my age but something changed. It took me a long time to figure it out. It’s true for me that black don’t crack so I don’t have very many wrinkles and my hair is still dark brown (with some help) and generally I look the same.

After about a week of thought I realized what it was… it’s my skin!  My skin had lost some of its natural glow, some of its youthfulness.  Now I should have lost all of that in my twenties like most people do but for me it happened in my 30’s. I know I have nothing to complain about I still don’t look my age but the point is that looking at that picture I realized I was a grown up.

 I am not the angry teenager or the confused young adult anymore.  I am actually a grown ass woman dog! I am not sure when it happened but at some point I grew up.  

I stopped making poor money decisions and learned to save for the things I wanted. I stopped looking at employment as a job and started doing the work to build a career.

I learned that sometimes walking away is better than fighting and that winning an argument is not worth losing a good friend over.

I tightened up my friendship filter. I have never been one to like just any ol’body. Some call me snobbish. I don’t think so, I am just selective. In result to that I have the best friends a girl could wish for.

I also learned that wandering the country and moving from place to place while exciting was not enough to make me happy. I had to put down some roots and make a place that was all mine.

I also became more appreciative of the family that is in my life. My family is loud, sometimes obnoxious and fun as hell.

I wish I could say I had learned all of life lessons but I am only human and have a long way to go but I am on the right path and that is what matters.

Even though most days I still feel like a teenager I am grown and loving it. I am also going to invest in a very good skin cleansing system to go with my already in-depth skin care regimen because for serious it’s important to take care of your skin. It wraps your whole body… duhhh!